Map of Purpose and Inspiration

My heart is a little heavy today, but I know why- it’s midwinter. All the dreaming of gardening and spring and trying to keep busy do not completely veil the wintertime blues, or Seasonal Affective Disorder. My mind wanders and ponders and when the mind is given too much berth it tends to get into trouble! I wonder about social media. I wonder about this blog. I wonder of my own worth and contribution to society. Then I quiet it down again with a gardening book and a cup of tea, thankful for the respite of winter and the rest before the miraculous madness of farming season.

What is the point of my being on facebook? It began as a way to reconnect with old friends. Which I did. And I never see them and few would even notice if I left facebook. I use it to promote my blog. What is the point of my blog? I like to think that my purpose is to inspire others. To help them bring the quiet simplicity of a handmade life into their own lives. To be able to walk softer on the planet. To find joy in an old fashioned lifestyle. It is particularly useful for highly sensitive people like myself. But, does it really make a difference at all? And then there is Instagram. Do sharing photos of our life really inspire anyone at all? Ah February. I will have my hands in the soil towards the end of next month.

My beautiful friend, Annie, lived with me two summers ago and helped me with the gardens, animals, and with canning and soap making, and was wonderful company to me.

In these moments of quiet insecurity when the sun still goes down way too early and the outdoors beckon but it is still too cold, and Vitamin D stores are low, minds do begin to wander. I believe what most of us are really worrying about is our purpose. Our contribution to the world. We receive so many blessings, are we returning them in a good way and are we appreciated? I tend to hermit myself into my home and adore the company of my animals to crowds and office buildings. I could easily fall into my only socialization being social media and this blog (though I have a handful of great friends, children, and a husband that won’t let me). But I do have a dream that I would love to see come true, though the universe would have to arrange it. Still, I believe it could happen. When a dream is put upon our hearts, it is map, a blueprint of our current purpose.

My friend, Ethan was my farm intern in 2014. We still keep in touch. He now farms in New York.

High school age and young twenties, I love their energy, their smiles, their hearts. I have such a desire to be a mentor, a friend, a surrogate mama to those that need someone to be there for them. I have a handful of past students and my children’s friends that consider me one of their mamas and I try to keep up with them. Make sure they feel loved. Make sure they have the encouragement they need to pursue their purpose.

I loved my daughter Shyanne working with me and teaching her the art of herbalism.

Over the last ten or so years my farm and homestead has revolved around how to make it profitable (or rather, how to survive), but now that my husband supports us, other ideas come forth. This is my biggest garden plan ever, my most ambitious homestead yet, and I will surely need help. I also want to share my skill set with the next generation so that they can feel secure in the fact that they could be subsistence farmers, homesteaders, nature restorers, and find peace in the soil of our sustenance. It could offer a safe place while they are learning by working with me. Have family style meals and be a positive influence and encouragement while working alongside future gardeners and friends.

I am so grateful to live this homestead life. This old fashioned, apron wearing, reading by oil lamp, warming myself by the woodstove, kitten on my lap, homegrown and handmade life, that I cannot help but share it. And hope that it brings inspiration.

9 Comments Add yours

  1. Thank you for this wonderful piece to ponder! I too struggled with social media, for the same reasons you’ve mentioned. I still blog, but have abandoned Facebook and Instagram. It felt like too much of my time was devoted to my tiny screen instead of the real world in front of me. That being said, yes I kept my blog. That’s my “me time” and I wouldn’t give it up! I love reading your blog and I find it very inspiring! Thank you for all you do.

    1. Farmgirl says:

      This means a lot to me, thanks! I left facebook for two days and didn’t post my blog and my own husband (and IT guy, mind you) couldn’t find my blog! Lol! I think a lot of my readers just click over when they see it but don’t sign up by email. I’m gonna check out your blog!

  2. Julie P says:

    Great piece I think we all ponder social media. I’m always inspired by your blog and you regularly give me pause for thought along with recipe ideas, sewing projects and books to read 😊

  3. Sci-fi Sally says:

    I only just discovered you, and yes, you do inspire. It sounds basically like you are doing *exactly* what I want to do, including how you want to inspire, and share the simple lifestyle with people.
    Wonderful. Good job! 🙂
    Spring will be here soon. I am enjoying our current snow day, since we don’t get that much snow, but I am also ready for Spring 🙂

    1. Farmgirl says:

      Thank you so much! Where do you reside? Will you be starting a garden?

  4. This post really resonated with me. I deactivated my Facebook account on 31st December 2018 because I felt rather than helping me to keep in contact with family and friends, it was actually creating very superficial connections, a “like” and the odd comment are no substitutes for a phone call or face-to-face catch up, but most people don’t bother because they can “see” what you’re up to when you share a status update or photo. It was really telling how few facebook “friends” noticed. I am still on instagram but I’m very selective about the accounts I follow, they’re all close friends or people that inspire me. I think one of the things I enjoy most about blogging is the sense of community, I love finding people from all over the world that I have so much in common with – and I find your photos and descriptions of homesteading very inspiring. 😊

    1. Farmgirl says:

      Do you have trouble with folks finding your blog? I also love the worldwide network of fellow writers and dreamers. I have three great penpals from this venture. I adore your blog!

      1. I use a lot of tags on wordpress, which seems to be how most people find my blog, and also promote posts on Instagram (when I remember). Thank you so much, that’s made my day. ☺️

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