We are strong believers in karma, whatever you put out will come back, usually ten fold, and we watch ourselves pretty closely. We really try to put out only positive and happy vibes. So this came as such a shock to us. We were so friendly, put so much work and money here, why did we lose so much? It’s laughably ironic that I write about and that we went from so close to self reliance to completely reliant. Completely. Reliant.
As each thing leaves the house I am saddened as it feels that the memory is lost with it too. Our trip to California, that sweet Christmas gift, antique shopping in Evergreen, our friendships, all walking out the door for practically nothing. Of course those memories and people are still with me, in the literal or spiritual sense and as we unburden our existence with so many material things, we feel lighter.
And I wonder if the karma coming to us is not bad, it’s a gift. It’s good. I have written about our day in the life of a homesteader, and our businesses, and our to-do lists. They exhaust my friends just reading them. We are being set free from ourselves!
I am daring to imagine an existence where my morning starts the same, with coffee on the porch with my cat, and writing, but then doesn’t turn into a frenzy of trying to keep up. In this little cottage we do not need 500+ preserved food items to be put up. We do not need to chop 4 cords of wood. We do not have to milk twice a day. We do not have to make enough money to feed all the hungry farm animals. We do not have to make cheese and soap and lotion and try to find the strength to do yet another farmer’s market. We are being set free. So long have Doug and I worked sun up to sun down with businesses, committees, children, and homesteading. We love it, but the idea of something different does intrigue us. If I want to do those some of those things, I can. If I don’t, then we can walk around town and find ourselves listening to live music in the park on Tuesday nights. We are being set free.
We will be working on building a tiny house. We will be co-creating beautiful, practically maintenance-free gardens, we will be teaching, but we will be doing it slowly and methodically in the middle of a town where we can find new teachers and friends and find each other in our honeymoon cottage. What a gift.
This week on this blog I would like to write about various ways to set ourselves free. How to find a closer connection to Creator, mental and emotional releases, herbal teas for spiritual use, easy ways to strengthen the body, to bring back health, to bring on inspiration and to make some dreams start coming true, and just setting ourselves free from anything that weighs us down. I hope you’ll join me! It’s going to be a freeing week!
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Your attitude and joy for life is very inspirational. May blessings and peace rain down on you!
Your post reminds me of something my wife said long ago when making a move–“I’ll bloom where I’m planted.”
Amen to that. We must choose to bloom or wither. There are large gardens to be put in. I better get blooming!
Yes farming is hard. The hours are long. Muscles ache, sometimes so does the heart. The chore list never ends. Few understand the commitment.
But every morning I wake up and think- i GET to do this! i am so fortunate!
Wishing you luck on your new adventure. May you find what you seek.
My heart is broken that we no longer get to. We will see what the urban farming is all about now.